Sarah Hyland reveals why she contemplated suicide in emotional video
The bubbly actress puts her scars on display
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CELEBRITY Sarah Hyland
Sarah Hyland is well-known and loved as the effervescent and hilarious Haley Dunphy on 'Modern Family,' but her real life has been far from a fun, light ride.
The 28-year-old actress opened up in a video with Self magazine about the tragedies and hardships that her body has been put through, all of which are almost difficult to believe from her bubbly public persona.
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Hyland was born with kidney dysplasia, which means that her kidneys did not develop normally in the womb, and it causes them to grow cysts. Since then she's had two kidney transplants, after one failed her, and reckoned with chronic illness, dialysis, endometriosis, a hernia, and an immense mental toll.
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I say words here (link in bio) that hopefully others can relate to and feel like they’re not alone. Hopefully those that are lucky enough not to experience this will learn about something new and take a moment to appreciate their health. Thank you so much to all the love and light I have received today. I love you all ❤️
She recounted with overwhelmingly tearful emotion that her father donated his kidney in the first transplant seven years ago, but five years later, she went into rejection. "When a family member gives you a second chance at life, and it fails... it almost feels like it's your fault. And it's not. But it does."
The rejection was extremely hard on Hyland. “I was very depressed," she admitted, her voice wavering. "And for a long time, I was contemplating suicide." Soon after, her little brother was discovered to be a match, but Hyland was scared of experiencing that same feeling of failure with his kidney as well, and she expressed guilt that someone who she was supposed to be taking care of was taking care of her. "I had gone through 26 years of always being a burden. Of always having to be looked after, having to be cared for ... it's a really helpless feeling."
In her life, Hyland has had at least 16 surgeries, seven of which were before the age of four. Her midsection is lined with scars, which she says looks like the New Jersey Turnpike. But she isn't afraid to show them.
"Scars are scars, they are little tally marks of what you've been through as a human being." And she has certainly been through a lot.
Despite all of the moments she was ready to give up, Hyland is the first to be thankful for her beautiful, busy life, her dogs, her boyfriend, and, of course, her family.
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